I think I had an anxiety attack last week. I had just been given a task I had requested when I suddenly developed this feeling of intense panic. I felt unworthy. My chest began to constrict. I wished I could stop time just for a second, just enough for to take a breath that seemed just out of reach.
I haven’t updated my blog in a while. I was going to say I haven’t written in while, but it occurred to me that I have, for people and for other websites. But it feels like all of those are nothing when I look back to the last time I updated this blog; almost as… Continue reading A Long Overdue Update
I had my final year project defense on Wednesday. The thought hasn’t sunk in yet. I know I have done it. But I am yet to deal with the ramifications of the whole process. Instead, I have taken to recalling anecdotes of the past few years I’ve spent at school. After the last paper my… Continue reading Senior Year Chronicles: A Chapter Ends
I was 12 or 13 the first time I took watermelon. It was at school. The new school management had decided to improve the quality of our food. Fruits were added to the diet. The variety increased. A bit. I don’t know about the quality though. Pity they couldn’t have paid more attention instead to… Continue reading What About The Seeds?
I have been thinking about words lately. About how much power they have: to empower or dishearten; spread happiness or despair; create or destroy. I have also been thinking how often times, like a child who doesn’t know the difference between a knife and a piece of plastic toy, we wield our words carelessly especially… Continue reading WORDS
At the beginning of the year, one of the things I resolved to do more of was to talk about a few controversial topics: one of them is sex. This article is rated NV for Non-virgin. Proceed further at your own risk. Sex is dirty. I don’t mean that in the holier-than-thou-my body-is-the-vessel-of-the-Lord kinda way.… Continue reading Let’s Talk About Sex
At the beginning of this year – or more accurately at the end of last year – I resolved to read more books. I have always been an avid reader but I had become quite inconsistent, and my tastes were narrowing. I grew up on Harlequin and Mills and Boon novels, and even though I… Continue reading A BOOK A WEEK